build your beautiful self

It has been an interesting morning to say the least. I woke up and didn’t feel like I was ready to get up. I stayed lying in bed thinking of all the things I have to do today and deciding that it was going to be a great day. The sun is shining and the weather is warm I will be finally done with a negative pull in my life and it can’t come fast enough. The thorn in my side will be gone, hopefully! So for that, I can smile. I have many other tasks on my list of things to do that doesn’t seem to end, but hey, I can’t complain! I am able to do these things on my own time and the only deadlines I have are ones I set for myself.

Thinking in that respect, I need to figure out for myself whether being under the gun helps or hurts me. I am really a person who likes to do things in chunks. I work on some of this, and while I am waiting for other things to happen with this, I work on some of that. It helps me keep my life diverse. I couldn’t do the same thing all day long every day or I would get bored and nothing would get done.

However, deadlines. I think I work well under pressure…then again, do I do thing half heartedly when I am pressed for time? I could probably do great work if I had focused and dedicated attention for a longer period of time and be allowed to make things good instead of getting them done in a time frame that is urgent. On the other hand, it allows me to put certain things off because no one is holding the proverbial gun to my head either.  My pockets are not lined with gold either so I need a little sense of urgency sometimes.

I have heard people state things like “just get things out there and tweak them later.” “Perfection is not as important as getting it into the world.” If you try for perfection, you will never accomplish what you set out to do.” I agree with those statements. I am in no way shape or form a perfectionist. I am sloppy and I just jump in with both feet and no clue what I am doing half the time. I work through the kinks and learn a ton on the way but man am I exhausted…

So maybe deadlines are good, maybe throwing things out there to the world and seeing what happens is great, but I think putting a little bit of effort in helps a ton. lol

Cheers to random thoughts in a weird mental state.