build your beautiful self

As an entrepreneur, I have had my fair share of rollercoaster rides, failures, micro-rock bottom moments, actual deep rock bottom moments, and moments of pure bliss, true happiness, and comfort. Mmmm comfort.

Along with the slew of things I mention comes the intense emotional response that these moments trigger. You can insert any adjective to describe the feelings of high and feelings of true low you can endure without losing hope in the possibility of life.

All of these experiences leave marks on your mind. These marks are like nicks that happen in a home as life is experienced in it. Chipped wall corners from bumps, scratches on the floor from furniture motion, and those spots you always see but forget to clean so you see them again.

It is impossible to know what will come at you on a daily basis in any work life, but for a soul who is bumped and bruised and trying to recover, the struggle is real. On most days, pleasant thoughts flow and I feel productive, forward moving, positive and happy. There are days, however, that are not like that at all. Negativity floods my mind and it becomes hard to focus. You feel stuck, engulfed in the horror of the mistakes you made as your mind shows you the highlight reel of your missteps in life.

Your mind is quick to fill in the not good pieces of every point of your life to date and you can feel Anxiety and stress bubbling up in the pit of your stomach. And yet, life goes on.

I find myself in the struggle of feeling like things are too good to be true so why should they be mode. I would be scolded by pretty much everyone if I said that out loud and each would have their own reason, but it is true. Today is a day that I feel frustrated.

I still put in a day full on my business, but I struggled with emotional dwelling and feelings of frustration. The struggle is real.

I am not looking for support or solace, just to write so that maybe if you read this and you are going through the same things, you can feel better knowing you are not alone. This is also for those who love those of us that are bruised so you can understand a little about what we experience.

We all still know that we will continue to drive on and we will continue to do great things, but most have a day that is a little harder than the rest and that is ok. As long as you wake up and go hard the next day and the next until you have built your life. I’ll be right there with you.

Cheers!