build your beautiful self

A journey has many pieces to it, at least when it comes to wellness.

The commitment is the first piece of the puzzle. I have that under my belt. I am committed. I knew that I needed better. I knew that my body was missing exercise and adventure. I knew that my mind was not healthy, and once I came to that conclusion, I committed to getting better. You can be stuck for so long and one day have the “AH HA” moment that tells you where you really are! There are some that get stuck for so long that they just accept it as status quo and that will be that for the rest of their lives unless someone who they care about steps in. If you are the someone that cares, STEP IN! I have been on a journey of self-development, and growth. I am pushing forward and trying to get to where I really want to be. I have dreams that will better humanity just a little bit, but they will make lives a little better. I can’t be of help to others, however, if I am not helping myself.

Setbacks are a part of life, failures are tools for learning what doesn’t work for you, no matter what kind they are. I had some doozys and they were taxing on every inch of my soul.

When you are positive by nature, failure sting. They burn you to the core, however most positive people can turn it around, see the good and move forward with optimism. When positive people are bombarded with negativity, anger, and disgust for a long time after (it can come from within or from your surroundings) they tend to let their positive light fade and nothing is joyful anymore. Sometimes the situations that cause negativity are ones that are inescapable. It is always only temporary however.  You get through the thing that is setting you back, you learn and grow and move on.

Sometimes it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and sometimes when you see the light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel gets stretched a little further and the extra added time to the thing causes you more pain. The one thing that has pushed me along is the fact that I am stubborn. I don’t give up if I have my mind-set on something. Sometimes to a fault! That long relationship I was in that lasted 5 years too long, the goal that I set for myself that I was able to successfully self-sabotage, that person I hire that I allowed to linger too long without progress or even good work or solutions to problems, the times I have set out to change bad habits only to pick them up again one time which threw me into a downward spiral back to where I was when I started. Oh yes I have had those times.

Find the strength within to see what was going wrong, course correct and persevere through the time it takes to make the change. Feel the pain, allow yourself to grieve for a short while, pick yourself up by the back of your shorts and find the next failure waiting to show you a little somthin. It is was it is and the sooner you accept the fact that you are the person who allowed yourself to be in the bad situation and you are the only one who can make the change to get out of it, the better and faster you will recover and find yourself hitting bigger milestones.

Oh I am doing great! {insert shit happening here} oh damn this is so painful! God I messed up. I…ate the wrong food, stuffed myself instead of satisfying the hunger and stopping, spent too much money, took too long, chose the wrong partner, made the wrong business choice, whatever goes here…messed up and now I have to fix it.

You are stronger than you think and support from outside perspectives really helps! Make sure you find the right kind of support however. Find the compassionate cheerleaders of you as an overall amazing human being. Don’t take the slap in the face support, or the passive aggressive support. Find the TRUE LOVE support to lift your spirits. Go to your happy place and reflect. Shed some tears and move the F on!

Cheers to you with love and support! I have been through the trenches and have seen the light. Failed and succeeded at attempts in life, and I am on a path to redemption within myself by myself. I have been strong and I have been weak and defeated. I bet I can understand at least some of your pain if you let me! I am here for you and I am your cheerleader!