build your beautiful self

As I wake this morning, I reflect on my day yesterday and how my day will be today. I am up and at em. The ambiance outside is a chilly, sunny fall day. I see the leaves in various shades of yellow-green as they do the proverbial march to from limb to ground. I catch a glimpse of the neighbors tree through mine that is glowing orange as well, as the sun kisses its’ crown.

I am finding that I am at an imbalance. The last weeks have been shed in a positive and wonderful energy, however, yesterday I was jolted into a very strange metal energy. I am not exactly sure what happened, but there were distinct things that altered my state of being.

As I spend time with a very intuitive friend of mine as he teaches me about our energies that the body emits and how some people are super sensitive to other people’s flow, I found myself being uber sensitive.

The day started out well, with a strong commitment to having a great and productive day. The morning went well, I wasn’t behind, feeling rushed or even feeling negative.

As the day went on things happened. Walk through didn’t go well as the seller had to work and at this one many people wanted to go through. I sat with my good friend and he was disappointed about a cancelled/rescheduled trip, and frustrated with the attitudes surrounding that, then I spoke with my business partner and as we talked, he ended up getting into a car accident.

I went on with my day and my appointments. While the appointments went as I expected, I found myself getting stuck in a mess of traffic. At that point I was frustrated. I was expected at my volunteering spot for my weekly time, and traffic was preventing me from getting home on time for me to be there on time. Side streets were busy as well so I jumped back onto another highway hoping the path was clear.

I was feeling hurried and disappointed that I was going to be late. My mind was not accepting that I would get there when I got there and that I was stuck in my current circumstance.

I finally gave into the traffic figuring I would only be 5-10 min late at the pace I was going, but was frustrated that I didn’t stay on the side street path.

Very strange thing happened. I was sitting in my seat watching the traffic that surrounded me, and although recalling the specifics is tough today, my foot hit the gas pedal causing me to surge into the car in front of me! I had more damage to my car then hers and she seemed ok which I am thankful for, but the whole thing shook me to the core! I let the negative effects of the day get into my psyche and I spiraled down that path.

I was sad and angry. I missed my volunteering and felt instantly worse.

That brings me to this morning. I have cleared my mind of the negativity and am hopeful for a great productive day. I am determined to release positivity into my day and hope that I can positively impact others today! I want to send out light and strength and peace today. I hope it reverberates back to me also! Send me positivity because obviously I pick up the vibes people put out. So strange and cool at the same time.

I will let you know how it goes.

Have a wonderful day today all!